The first is a song by Chicago band called The Audition - “Don’t Be So Hard”
Basic emo-pop band on indie label Victory. Their CD Controversy Loves Company is truely a great album throughout, but I especially dig this song. Check it out and let me know what you think.
“Don’t Be So Hard” MP3
“Don’t Be So Hard” Lyrics
The Audition Website
The second song that I have in permanent rotation is by The Sundays - “She”. The Sundays were a great pop/light alternative band from the UK. The last official Sundays cd saw the light in 1997 with nothing since.
I was introduced to them by my hooker* Sara and I listen to them all the time to relax. This song “She” from album Static & Silence is just really beautiful and I can’t stop listening to it. Take a listen and enjoy.
*meaning friend. sheesh, relax.
Friday! Friday!
Last weekend before Christmas and I haven’t done any shopping whatsoever. Granted part of my family had their Christmas celebration LAST weekend, but still, I didn’t even have any gifts to give because I was broke at the time. SO this weekend I have to shop - among work, going to my dad’s for the OTHER celebration, getting my drug test for Motorola and going grocery shopping.
Work will probably take up the majority of my weekend - but I’m creating a website, so I enjoy doing that.
PLUS Nick will be here to visit in 5 days and I’m very excited about that. Tyler is at Joe’s for the evening and I plan to drink wine and work. 
I know, doesn’t sound very exciting - but I just finished resting and watching Mr & Mrs. Smith (for the thousandth time) so I’m relaxed and ready to go!
I’ve been listening to a ton of new music lately. New for me, at least.
A lot of these albums are up on server and available to download. If you do not know the link and are interested, email me and I’ll give it to you.
Coretta Scott
Emery
Mae
Straylight Run
Terminal
The Academy Is…
The Audition
The Receiving End of Sirens
Vendetta Red
If you are wondering they are all mainly emo/screamo type artists/music.
Have a great weekend! 8 Shopping days left!!!!!
Yes yes, I am gettin on it… TODAY. It will be up.. I’m determined.
Speaking of determined, I had a dream last night that Loree and I went to see Mudvayne at the Rave and they were playing downstairs in the bar section (the good ole From Zero stomping grounds). But no one knew they were there, so me and her ran RIGHT up to the front and started rocking out. It was swell.
Then they got moved upstairs to the Ballroom and DURING the middle of “Fucking Determined” the roadies were running on stage and carrying the equipment off. Chad just kept on singin and we kept on rockin out. He had a mohawk, it was hot.
Finally it was just him and us there - he finished the song and then we all walked upstairs together.
Then I woke up.
The end.
I’m going through a very strange time in my life. A lot of ups and downs lately. I suppose it’s called growing and adapting to the myriad of shit life can throw at you. But to be honest, I was ok with my boring - stable - un-eventful life. Wait, who am I kidding - those words have never described MY life. But they seem to be fitting with all the strange, chaotic stuff that has happened to me as of late.
I don’t deal with change very well, and I’m not good at letting go of things. I tend to dwell. And dwelling never helps when you want and NEED to move on from things.
Being yelled at by someone I care about gave me the kick in the ass I needed the other day. It came as quite a shock to me. Everyone in my life does their best to sympathize and listen to me when I’m bitching about retarded stuff. I tend to worry over nothing, I know it. It’s just me. And if I want to bitch about it, and someone does not want to listen, then fine. That’s the point where I usually just turn to someone else who is willing to listen and coddle me during my rant. But this time, because I value this person so much - and I know without a doubt that he cares for me - I stopped and listened. And it actually did me a whole lot of good.
I’m not going to sit here and let myself deteriorate under anxiety. I’m going through a bit of a “cleansing” process, I guess you could say. It’s time to move forward with all things in my life and not look back. What good does living in the past do?
Nope, none. Sometimes you have to give up on trying to fix all the things you’ve done wrong - or have been done wrong TO you, and just move forward. Keep moving, don’t stop, don’t look back and don’t dwell.